Life in the Present
What's up all you non-commenting readers ^_^. Haha jk, i'm pretty bored at school right now and i dun have class for an hour and a half. I can't play games cause for some reason this computer doesnt' detect my IPOD which kind of blows; however, this allows me to update this blog! ^_^. I sadly don't have pictures cause i've been pretty lazy. Maybe in the next week if i find the time or energy or willpower hehe.
First of all, some people have too much time on their hands. http://forums.worldofwarcraft.com/thread.aspx?fn=wow-dungeons&t=143561&p=1&tmp=1#post143561 a game is a game and i'm fine with a few fanatics but good lord if you have the time to make up your own calculations and analysis....then i think someone needs to meet the Sun. In Seattle however, the Sun likes to play hide and seek a lot ^_^ so the Sun and i have gotten a little farther apart.
So yeah life....ummmmm. I've just been reading, cleaning, gaming, and cooking haha. homework has been pretty low and classes are doing pretty well. Mainly my stress is comign from maintaining the apartment. I've been trying to cook more instead of just buying my meals since it's cheaper. I need to grow up and become more independent someday eh? I've been reading a lot more leisure books. I finished a book on dogs, "How Dogs Think" by Stanley Coren. I sure do miss Patchy =/. I've been reading "A Million Pieces" by James Frey. It's pretty disturbing but relevant to me since the main character suffers from depression, anxiety, rage, etc but to an extreme. He's basically in rehab for drugs and alcohol abuse...all taken to its very extreme.
I've been a lot less stressed lately because well i don' thave a crush on anyone hahahah. Life is so much simplier so i'm gonna let life be and take it as it comes. This is how people should think and i'll continue this because it keeps me way less insane ^_^. I can't wait to go home in a few weeks. I get to go back to free meals, mom's cooking, and a bed! There's somethign about home that cannot be exactly described except a strong sense of security. For some reason i feel so much more relaxed and i can't wait to go home hahaha.
Something i thought about yesterday was people's ability to empathize with others on things they themselves have never experienced. For example, is it possible for a person that has never gone through depression to truly understand what a person who is depressed is going through? I've told a few friends that i've been sick with Generalized Anxiety disorder and depression. I've always gotten the suggestion that i should just feel happier and not be more nervous. I still think that although these people are smart, probably smarter than me, it's a stupid suggestion. it's not like i choose to be stressed out and depressed all the time. It's somethign i cannot control...i just feel this way when i wake up in the morning. Nobody can directly control if they feel refreshed or tired when they wake up in the morning. Then my friends kind of shrug it off because they don't understand my viewpoint and i don't understand theirs. They ask why i can't just make myself feel better and i ask, how can i make myself feel better when i've tried so many times before...it just doesn't happen. My observation begs the question....can people that haven't been depressed empathize with me? I find that only people who have been depressed or been diagnosed with a mental illness can really understand my situation and those that have not had the unpleasant experience of going through a mental illness just do not understand. Is this another issue of the have and have nots?
First of all, some people have too much time on their hands. http://forums.worldofwarcraft.com/thread.aspx?fn=wow-dungeons&t=143561&p=1&tmp=1#post143561 a game is a game and i'm fine with a few fanatics but good lord if you have the time to make up your own calculations and analysis....then i think someone needs to meet the Sun. In Seattle however, the Sun likes to play hide and seek a lot ^_^ so the Sun and i have gotten a little farther apart.
So yeah life....ummmmm. I've just been reading, cleaning, gaming, and cooking haha. homework has been pretty low and classes are doing pretty well. Mainly my stress is comign from maintaining the apartment. I've been trying to cook more instead of just buying my meals since it's cheaper. I need to grow up and become more independent someday eh? I've been reading a lot more leisure books. I finished a book on dogs, "How Dogs Think" by Stanley Coren. I sure do miss Patchy =/. I've been reading "A Million Pieces" by James Frey. It's pretty disturbing but relevant to me since the main character suffers from depression, anxiety, rage, etc but to an extreme. He's basically in rehab for drugs and alcohol abuse...all taken to its very extreme.
I've been a lot less stressed lately because well i don' thave a crush on anyone hahahah. Life is so much simplier so i'm gonna let life be and take it as it comes. This is how people should think and i'll continue this because it keeps me way less insane ^_^. I can't wait to go home in a few weeks. I get to go back to free meals, mom's cooking, and a bed! There's somethign about home that cannot be exactly described except a strong sense of security. For some reason i feel so much more relaxed and i can't wait to go home hahaha.
Something i thought about yesterday was people's ability to empathize with others on things they themselves have never experienced. For example, is it possible for a person that has never gone through depression to truly understand what a person who is depressed is going through? I've told a few friends that i've been sick with Generalized Anxiety disorder and depression. I've always gotten the suggestion that i should just feel happier and not be more nervous. I still think that although these people are smart, probably smarter than me, it's a stupid suggestion. it's not like i choose to be stressed out and depressed all the time. It's somethign i cannot control...i just feel this way when i wake up in the morning. Nobody can directly control if they feel refreshed or tired when they wake up in the morning. Then my friends kind of shrug it off because they don't understand my viewpoint and i don't understand theirs. They ask why i can't just make myself feel better and i ask, how can i make myself feel better when i've tried so many times before...it just doesn't happen. My observation begs the question....can people that haven't been depressed empathize with me? I find that only people who have been depressed or been diagnosed with a mental illness can really understand my situation and those that have not had the unpleasant experience of going through a mental illness just do not understand. Is this another issue of the have and have nots?
posted by Jeff Chen at 11:09 AM
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